Do you ever worry you might write something about your family that they would later see and be upset by? I do, so I try to afford my family a certain degree of privacy. Yet in my devotion at P31 today I said some things about my then preschooler, now middle-school daughter. Namely, about her argumentative nature.
She has frequently amazed me at her unwillingness to back down or concede ground in an argument – even when she stands to lose much just by arguing. She has told me she struggles to tame this aspect about herself that comes so second-nature to her.
Maybe you too know something about trying to tame an aspect about yourself that seems built-in.
She’s said, “Mom, for some reason I’ll argue even when I don’t really want to.” That comment made me think of the apostle Paul’s lament here in Romans 7:15.
Maybe you too know something about doing what you really don’t want to do.
Alaina is such a good kid - a precious girl. And she wants to be an obedient daughter, Christian, and student. Her nature just gets in the way at times. Maybe you know something about that – I sure do.
I actually think God put that don’t-back-down bent in her – for His holy purposes. She just has to learn how to submit it to His will and let Him shape and channel it for good. She would make a great Christian apologist. Or lawyer for the ACLU. Or stay-at-home mom who stands up against injustice.
Maybe God can use your unruly tendencies for holy purposes too if you’ll submit them to His authority.
I invite you to leave a comment sharing an area of your life you are struggling to tame– something you need to up your obedience in. I will pray over that for you this weekend. Commenting will also enter you to win a copy of my about-to-be-released book It’s No Secret: Revealing Divine Truths Every Woman Should Know. So make sure I can contact you through your comment!
Alaina would not be upset I told you about her tendency to argue. She’s learning how to tame it, but also to embrace it at the same time. Let me show you what I mean. Yesterday she asked me to print off a homework assignment for her. I responded, “Sure, just email it to me and I’ll print it out. What’s the assignment, honey?” “We had to write about ourselves in a short little poem-thing to share with the class.” Here is what she wrote:
Funny, energetic, argumentative & kind
Relative of: Rick (dad) Rachel (mom) & Caleb (brother)
Resident of: Wilmington NC
Who reads: realistic fiction, non-fiction magazines, & fantasy
Who likes: reading, soccer, violin, swimming & spaghetti
Who loves: family, friends, & owls
Who fears: terrorists, bad grades, & death
Who wishes: to be on Broadway, to be a lawyer, & to have a pet owl
Who admires: my parents, my brother & Mr. Mike
Who needs: food, more money & books
Who aspires: to go to Paris, go to law school, & have my own library
Self-awareness is a beautiful thing – especially when we bring both our strengths and our weaknesses to God and submit ourselves fully to Him. Because God knows a thing or two about not backing down.
He doesn’t relent the purposes for which He created us and gifted us.
So thankful for my daughter, and for God’s unrelenting purposes.