This consumed most of my days for the better part of 2012. And I remember pushing a lot of stuff to the back burner during that time. Can't think about that now. That will have to wait. I'll do that in March...
I got up yesterday and dealt with the overflowing laundry basket. Then I went to the grocery store. I could finally begin cooking for my family again. Not just spaghetti marinara out of a jar with a box of angel hair and a bag of salad. Only I stood there in the grocery store and couldn't think of a single thing to make besides spaghetti.
I know I know how to cook lots of things ... but what were they??
I came home with a pot roast because that's what was on sale. While on the phone with my girlfriend Marybeth, she asked me how I make my pot roast. I had to laugh because once I got home yesterday and put it in the crock pot with the carrot, onion, celery and potatoes, I couldn't remember what to drench it in.
After figuring that out I cleaned the kitchen and the living room. And thought, Now what?
Finished feels good but it's a little disorienting!
I knew there was a ton of stuff I needed to do, and other stuff I wanted to do - I'd been shoving it all aside for months. But nothing came to mind. I just kept feeling like I should be writing.
Isn't it interesting how we go for so long suppressing things - reality, dreams, projects that need doing that we don't want to do, projects we want to do but we're scared of - that we eventually forget about them. We know they are there, but still we don't remember them.
Slowly, today, it's all starting to come back to me. And the list of stuff I need to do is long! Not 50,000 words long, but long.
What have you suppressed for so long that you've forgotten? ...You know it's there, yet it's forgotten. Go do it. Deal with it. Dust it off. Finish it!